Mill, Concluding Remarks
So, things have calmed down a lot recently. With the … removal of Ambrose Grant and
Isabel Westergard, doppelganger and sandman activity has been negligible.
I’ve entered into therapy to deal with my recently acquired issues with violence.
Not with Dr. Sorensen, however, as one might have expected. I have only seen him a couple
of times since the demise of Jarette Costa, and he seemed very uncomfortable around me. I’m not
sure what it is, but he was always a strange fellow, even in the beginning. I don’t judge
him for this, as I’ve certainly changed as well … and mostly for the worse.
I’ve remained in contact with Amelia Greenberg (what I consider one of our few success stories),
but I’ve been unable to get in touch with Ken Thomas (our other success). I wanted to let
him know that it was (probably) safe to come home, but he seems to have gone to ground. I
wish him the best of luck.
The disturbing presence of Isabel Westergard continues to haunt my dreams. Something seems to
have changed with the doll. It no longer protects me as it once did. I still can’t quite
make out what (and where) the ‘key’ and ‘door’ are located. I fear if I can’t locate them, Isabel
will kill me or I will go insane.
The constant wear on my mind has started to hinder my work performance, but Shaw has been (so far)
fairly understanding. I’ve ceased looking for alternative employment. Although I’m still unhappy
with how things went down with Ambrose, I understand that Shaw was in a tough spot. She did what
she thought was right in the circumstances.
I’ve tried to put away my guns, but I still don’t feel safe without them. I suppose it may take
awhile before I can put the events of 2010 behind me.
We’re still awaiting word from Infinity, regarding the tapes. I fear she has either forgotten us
or that she has already given us all she knew. Maybe I should have sold her the doll when she
first asked for it. Maybe then I wouldn’t have these nightmares or occasionally see these weird
images in the sky.
Despite what it has done to me, I take some pride in what I did. I made many mistakes, but I
always tried to do the right thing, and I think I made Seattle a safer place.